Be offended

It is now for me to speak what I want, what I really mean and my last decision. As long as I keep it all inside of me, it’s like making my life less fun. I am so fucked up yet very disappointing with you guys. After all you did, I saw that there was no appreciation for me. I know that I am not the smart, pretty, cool, the one who always in time, get her work done all the time. But at least I beg you to please appreciate me as your friend.  I don’t say that you guys don’t appreciate me but that was just what I feel. Like seriously, bitch. For example, if you guys can take care of Neeza’s feelings then why don’t you guys take care of mine too? I am not being jealous with her. It’s because, she just too much for me.  She was spoiled. Let say if she were angry at you guys then why you guys were so worried about her? I mean like hello when the others get mad and you guys just ignore them and let them be okay on their own.  That is really unfair. You guys were afraid if she gets mad at you. You guys were worried about her when she was being all herself on her own. I know you guys were faking it when she wants something you dislike. Don't lie. 

Another thing is, about the marching competition. I already told you guys that I will not to take part in this year. Why you guys are so like don’t understand what I told you before? What do you want, really? You guys keep on asking me about the marching. You guys didn't give me the permission form and suddenly you wanted me to take part. But you did give the permission form to the others. What the f? My parents don’t let me taking part in marching for this year and you guys started to ignore me. Hello, I have feelings too you know. That was my parent’s decision. Not my boyfriend's decision. Get the facts right. I must obey what they said. It was my parents who brought me to this world, not you guys. It’s been two years I took part in that competition just to make you guys feels better. I have been doing the same thing unwillingly and sacrifice my time. I disobeyed my parent’s decision. But why can’t you guys just please make me feel better by respecting my decision? Please understand on my situation. I never disrespect yours decisions but why must you guys disrespect mine? You guys can see me laughing like a maniac, act crazy with you guys and feeling no sad with you and be the one who always say that I am fine, okay and what-so-ever.  Don't be surprise that one day, the silly me can be mad. Please take care of my feelings. I am so sick of this, taking care of your feelings. You guys treat me like I am a one heartless person that can be fooled by you guys. Well not this time, anymore. And one thing, please don’t give me one of your stupid strange look on me when I am not in the mood or give me your immature sarcasms. I really hate it. Until here, I really hope you guys can accept all of these written above. You guys can accept my curses at school, right and I will not be sorry about this. Yes, I am now pleased you guys to be offended with this post. Ego? Yeah, keep on with your old no good yet so obnoxious attitude.

Assalamualaikum :)

P/S:

 I really am mad this time for serious.